Inspiration has struck me like a ton of bricks.
Some of my earliest blog entires were often responses to quotes that struck me in some way—quotes I felt I could relate to or comment on. I love the challenge of expressing my own viewpoint and figuring out why certain quotes leave an impact, more so than others. Heck, I currently have one written on a bright yellow post-it note, stuck on my computer, just waiting for me to explore when the moment strikes.
However, I just came across another by author JM Storm, posted yesterday by Yoga Inspiration on Instagram, that so perfectly sums up recent thoughts, feelings, and inner-battles I’ve been dealing with over the past few days. So much so that I opened WordPress faster than I have in a while. It read,
I think some souls have a way of connecting without our knowledge. That’s why you can meet someone for the first time, but inside you just know. You know it is not the first time you’ve felt them.
It’s an inexplicable feeling, but so very true in some of my most treasured friendships. More recently, it also feels like the reason I can’t seem to let some people go. I always joke with one of my best and oldest friends because, while she remembers the moment we met with perfect clarity, I don’t remember a thing. For me, its a trend with some of my closest friends, save the most recent ones that are more fresh in my memory.
It’s as if they just materialized into my life. They were already there, but I couldn’t see them yet—there wasn’t a distinct beginning to our connection. It created a bond that is there because we just feel it, and the more tangible indicators of friendship simply don’t matter. Sometimes, it comes in the form of not remembering the moment we met and in others, it was that sense of knowing in the instant we did, that they were already a part of my life.
Easiest example of the latter is my lovely Charlotte (and if she’s reading, she already gets it). The day we met is clear in our minds, but we both sat there on opposite sides of the room just knowing there was already a connection. Simultaneously, we felt we already knew each other and that we needed to know each other.
Now, this is not to say these are the only people I have incredibly close friendships with (that’s not the case at all), but these are my soulmates—the relationships I feel in my core from the start. This makes for lasting friendships, which I am so grateful for, but it also makes it hard to let people go when it’s time to.
If the struggles of high school and college taught me anything, it’s that the people you meet throughout your life are there at the time they need to be, for however long they are meant to be. But regardless of how wonderful and special the friendship, it doesn’t mean they will always or should always be there. Some people are easier to move forward from… and others, not so much. In my case, with many friends, it didn’t mean a distinct fall out, but a smooth transition in separate directions as we continued growing up.
My subconscious has a way of bringing the most connected people back into my mind, oftentimes in the form of dreams. I had one earlier this week that has kept me in a funk ever since. It’s a hard situation to find yourself knowing you need to move forward, but still not being able to break this tie at your core—the elements that connect your souls.
I am so grateful to have stumbled upon this quote—I needed to put this into words and the timing could not have been more perfect, because of both my recent dream and because of how insanely connected I’ve felt over the past few weeks to some of these “soulmates.” It’s a beautiful bond that I treasure so much and it’s not always easy to express in words.
Hope everyone is having a great Friday!